Tuesday, April 15, 2008

More Than a Snippet - Caution!

I started this blog as a quilting journal with some "snippets" of our life thrown in. I haven't written much about the difficult financial time we've been going through. I'm not sure why...no body's business but our own...many things had to be kept confidential...who wants to read depressing stuff, I know I don't. There were many reasons.
Today we took the final blow. I'm hoping it will all be made public tomorrow. It's so terrible when things happen that are literally no fault of your own. It's very much like being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I've been holding it all in for months now. I've avoided my friends because when they inevitably ask "How are things going?" I have to lie. I can't tell them what's really going on, or how I really feel. How sucky is that? I have this list on my bulletin board in my sewing room...reasons I hate (fill in the name of the company). I started it jokingly in my head, but one day I sat down and wrote out the reasons and posted it. Today I threw it away, because, you know, that's where it belongs. I feel for all the other families who have and will be affected by this. Who needs this kind of stress. I read Country Mouse's blog tonight. She wrote about some wonderful blessings in her life. She reminded me that I have all those things too. I want to thank her for that. Tomorrow is another day. I'm moving on.

30 comments:

upstateLisa said...

sending you hugs and hoping for a fresh day tomorrow!!!

Laurie said...

jacquie,
throwing out the garbage in our life is a good thing...it serves no purpose. I will pray that you find peace with whateve it is that is upsetting you.
hugs
laurie

Kieny said...

Sometimes we have to tell ourselves to throw the bad things out and try to move on; not allways easy I know. I hope the future has a lot of happy days waiting for you.

cdnj said...

Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time.

I hope you find peace and can keep that 'garbage' out of your life.

Stephanie said...

Sorry you're going through a rough patch here, but glad you threw the sheet away. All that is just fuel for a fire that would consume only you. (Been there, done that, got the T-shirt to prove it. *s*)

Hope tomorrow's a purge kind of day.

Stephanie said...

One more comment: this post from another Stephanie made my day.

http://conversationswithgrace.blogspot.com/2008/04/james-13.html

Jody said...

I'm so sorry. Lots of hugs to you.

syko kajsa said...

You are not alone. But who wants to talk about depressing things like that? I don't want to bother my friends either. I am happy to be an optimist, and usually I am able to imagine a brighter future (financially that is), but some days you just wonder how much shit one has to take. Today is a good day.

Hugs!

Potiron said...

Hang in there !!!!!

QuiltedSimple said...

Oh. . . I hope today goes better for you and that you find peace with the challenges you are facing. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you!!
Hugs,
Kris

magikquilter said...

These things are really hard at the time, I think I can guess what is happening and it is tough but you have done the right thing by them, things will swing back for you.

I think it is the way of things that we never stay down,we get up again and go on to be knocked back down again by the next thing but hopefully we will have time in between to recoup!!! Cynical? No, I am a realist and think it best to be that way, we are not too surprised by life that way. I feel that you have reached that point of acceptance and that is a start isn't it?
Please do not be afraid to share your woes, yes we bloggers have this persona we like to perpetuate but we also have lives which sometimes suck! Hugs and positive thoughts .... you will get through this, you are a VERY good person.

Amy said...

It is sucky when you can't tell those closest to you about what's really going on in your life, but everyone, everyone has done this. I am sorry to hear about your struggles. I hope tomorrow will bring some hope or at least some resolution to your situation.

Sara said...

I hope tomorrow is better for you! I know these times suck and it will get better. Count your blessings and stay positive! Your in my thoughts and prayers!
Sara

Darcie said...

(((Sending you some good ole North Dakota hugs, Jacquie!!!)))

If writing thoughts down helps though...I support you. I do that often. It's not always the sharing or airing of it with others that is important...but just the sorting out in one's own mind and heart.

Best wishes to you.

amandajean said...

good for you for throwing the sheet away. I hope many better days are ahead! hugs to you.

country mouse said...

So sorry to hear you are going through so much. I'm glad I could give you a lift. Remember, each day is a new start. Hang in there, things will get better. Big hugs to you!!

driftwood said...

It's so hard putting on a brave face when you feel terrible inside, and it must have felt awful to lie to your friends. I hope that tomorrow you feel better, and that you always feel that you can say what you need to here.

Meg said...

I'm so sorry you are going through a tough time. I hope it passes quickly.

Jen said...

Jacquie, I hope your issues clear up quickly. It's great you were reminded of the good things with that blog post...when we go through troubles it is sometimes hard to think about anything other than the bad stuff. Try to find some balance until it is resolved.

- Jen

Valerie said...

There are so many people hurting right now. I have a son that hasn't worked in 2 years for physical reasons. He has no income at all. I have a son in law who walked in to his job to find he had no job after 8 years. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I really enjoyed my visit with you.

Dana said...

i'm so sorry to hear that things are bumpy right now. i much prefer smooth sailing and i'll be anxious to read that they are smooth for you again soon. :)

Catherine said...

Sometimes we have to go through rough times to come out on the other side and find some really good things in the future -- but it can be an awfully bumpy road to travel. I hope whatever it is will start to resolve and you'll be able to put this behind you.

nicolette said...

Sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time in your life. Thanks for sharing this with your blogfriends.
Take your time to find some peace, count your blessings indeed. I hope the future will be bright and light.

KCQuilter said...

So sorry to hear of your sad times, Jacquie, and hope that things look brighter soon.

Liz said...

I too hope that things improve for you. Life is challenging enough sometimes without having huge things hanging over your head and eating up all of your emotional energy with worry. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

bettyninja said...

Tough times. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

ivyarts said...

Wishing you all the strength and resources you need to see you through. Good for you for tossing the negativity. Hang in there.

Thriftin and Craftin said...

I'm not sure about all the things going on, but I can tell from this post, times are tough for you right now. I'll say a prayer for you and yours, and just wanted you to know I hope things get better soon. No words I can say can make it OK, but I am thinking of and hoping only the best for your situation. I went through a HORRIBLE work situation a few years ago. I was treated horribly, and to this day I have to fight the urge not to let my negative feelings towards them creep back in. It's really hard to let it go, but you have to for your sanity. Most of us have been there. Not sure if this is at all what happened in your life, but just wanted you to know that a lot of us have been through a yukky work situation. BIG HUG!

Carla

Leanne said...

I am just catching up on blog reading sorry to hear you are in a hard place at the moment I hope things take a turn for the better.

susan said...

i am in the same situation you are! life has been rather rough since before xmas and i am ready for life to get back on track. just know that eventually it will get better, it has too!!! i heard something on john tesh last nite. he said get a negative thought in your head, then put your chin on your chest, and slowly raise your eyes to the ceiling. he says your thoughts get positive(go up) as your head does....hmmm interesting. im willing to try anything. hang in there baby! and keep creating